This is still about the same situation…busstop out of service, but you want to relax. And the thing was, you cannot be selfconscious without knowing that there is no service. So that was a relief. It was just if you would relax from there, then it changes again :)…So far…But then I stumbled about another theme of it, that it isn’t.. how to say, it isn’t like an advice, it isn’t that one would feel kind of smallish. That actually resolves in part 2:
…And anyway 🙂 whoever relaxes waiting for the bus? The reason people are looking is very different. They might wanna know how can you just do that so easily or they don’t even know why they are looking. But the last thing that would appear to them is that you were waiting for a bus which isn’t even a big deal but we fear to look stupid. We fear to think/believe we would do something stupid and others believing it. In itself we do not fear to have mistaken that, which is why, to say, that it is no big deal has something dumbing down to it, if you would take it in a advice giving way which it isn’t.
If you went like to not give a fuck, you have the other thing not resolved. In itself it is true, actually it is like a hint that I wonder why we don’t follow it. It means that somehow you can actually just sit there and all concerns do not apply (but of course sometimes the fear means you don’t want to do something). It just feels off if you would relax “anyway”, you’re not really getting yourself then and it’s all a bit wired up then. So that means, there is no point in fearing to fear, because it’s good, you can experience it, look at others how nobody thinks so.
edit: But maybe I see it wrong because don’t we lose our charme and naturalness when we overthink it like that and we rather just want to feel as we feel. I now feel it has an overimportance about fixing something that doesn’t really matter. It feels sad. Because it feels not free.
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