The good of something old is not at all not inclusive in the good of something new.

In another sense, it’s these 2 things, to either talk it out or create something new. It can be tricky to impossible when talking about it makes it worse. Somebody not wanting to talk about it,might easily feel unconsciously he or she simply can’t because of being lost or seeing it would lead to such, or fears and lack of trust also. Meaning to splitt is often actually because one wants to connect. And to create new requires a good amount of understanding. Somebody might say something but actually misexpressed it and then identified with it and actually doesn’t want to have a reply to it but feels so cause the feeling was pleasant. By that I mean the thing about says no means yes or the other way around.

It is not easy to create a proper relationship when both don’t have a a good sense for reality and self. Otherwise it can be like In Uncharted 2 the Coop, person gets stunned all the time. So the best idea seems to be to not be irritated so easily. Oftentimes, it always looks like it isn’t. Somebody might act like a worried parent, projecting fears but might actually be worried about being in such role maybe. So if you would say something like don’t worry, person would identify. It’s the theme of roleing and reroleing. So it would be better to just let the person be from knowing everything else makes it worse, it’s not really the same as in taking them for real and letting them be. Or saying something simply based on what one sees. It often needs the natural feelings/energy you feel cause we face energy also, so saying this is whatever as in achieving such, cause it’s automatic. It is more about knowing that it needs surely a real perception to feel and there is no point in trying cause when it is, trying is not part of that. Something not to do and knowing why because sometimes the trying is the only thing that might be distracting but not at all overall. Sorry for expressing this complicatedly 🙂

So in that sense you can’t try to create. Relationships go easy as children  and around the first quarter of life. Then “shit” of the world or not really the world sneaks in as in I’m angry about it, causes disconnections and it doesn’t matter to think about such and why and that it might make sense or maybe that it is unneccssary. It doesn’t matter cause one might aswell or prefer to create something side-effect wise. But it shows that true love can be like the lottery, to get through and not misunderstand each other and change in the process. At the same it isn’t that hard. It’s always easy actually which is also why it can be so hard.


Being balanced

This is inspired by poker where you not only play your hand but other possible holdings.

The way it translates to life is that sometimes we do something that we think might look weird. For example standing somewhere which isn’t particulrly weird but the reason why we do it might be something we don’t want to communicate, which we do though when we think of it or try not to, which is just a layer of that. Now it is not about lieing to oneself but instead actually not searching for another possible reason for what you do but just knowing that there is one. And then you might get curious what it could be and it is fun also.

It is not the case that an action is in itself because what we really do is the action. So there is no standing around pretty much but either waiting or relaxing or whatever it is or well standing around maybe. So this idea is about to leave it open not to replace your actual thing you are doing but just leaving it open which sometimes just feels better when one isn’t so readable. It is better boundaries.

I mean actually I got inspired for this with regards to something that could be misunderstood because otherwise there is rarely much of a deal about things. I mean sometimes there is just situations where it feels really good to feel like at home.


Music and Practising it

Making a mis-take playing music …The reason to play something again is not to play the tune perfect as in having to play it perfect. Because that is hilariously absurd (apart from there being a real reason also for such ways). It is simply to stay in touch with the feeling you either want to express through the music “or” the feeling of a tune overall.

The same is true for practice. It is just naturally motivated by wanting to feel how it feels. Surely there are other “ways” or maybe wanting to practise technique to have a flowing experience or to later then “be more expressively”.

Thing is if you want to feel how it feels you get creative technically and how to practise it. But if you force yourself, you don’t even feel why you wanted to play it in the first place. So the pure performance focus becomes absurd cause it distracts.

Writing Songs in your Dreams

I had quite a fascinating insight about that I would like to share.

So far I had this experience twice. One was a lucid dream the other was a normal dream.

In my lucid dream I was dealing with an opponent cause I realized it was a dream. I threw him out of the room and then I layed down in this dream and went to sleep or actually I was relaxing on a bed with headphones listening to music. I knew it was a dream, I felt my body on my bed, there was a deep relaxation. So I listened to this song and it was an awesome one, I couldn’t remember it though cause it was full stereo with bass, drums, keys, guitar..too much to remember.

Before I come to the point let me share the other dream.

I was in the camera position of an unplugged concert of Oasis. My pov was the camera, I was observing it. And Liam sat there playing the second guitar staccato accents around the offbeats and smiling like a kid looking around in the audience, very playful. It was a great rhythm. while Noel was strumming in d-minor sometjing like “The importance of being idle” and he sang. BUT it was a NEW song, They were performing a new song. And I believed it, I didn’t know I was dreaming.

Now what happened was since I believed it was real, my brain had to create this reality and actually the song sounded well. I only got to the verse, something very simple, yet I would usually not come up with it when trying to write a song. I would be too focussed too close to myself. The focus would be on trying to write a song instead of what I want to write about. The chorus I wrote after waking up but I only got to the 2nd line of it. It was like a filling in song, meaning when you have the first line of the verse you have the whole verse. The melody adjusted to the chord changes, not always how a song goes.

In the first dream even though I knew I was dreaming since I also took it for real, the music coming out of the headsphones I had to invent.

It’s actually quite hard to explain and I guess you can’t really try to do that.

When I was younger I figured a similar approach. I listened to a new album in the evening and in the morning I tried to remember it but since I only listened to it once I came up with my own stuff, yet it wasn’t all that satisfying. The same effect you have when you shower and you listen tomusic from another room and sometimes it feels like something other than it actually is cause you can barely hear it.

In each case my mind was forced to create a reality, the belief that it was real made it possible. Surely it is influenced from the things I already wrote and listen to and I think we do such things when writing songs when beign awake. So I was believing I am at a concert and to make the dream believable I had to come up with a good song and I wasn’t distracted by pressure to succeed at it. It was very natural and automatic.

It turned out to be chords I would usually avoid when trying to write a song. The first line has the chord d-minor which I felt and then the next chord was A major and the melody simply adjusted to that chord like a call and response to then form the figure of a verse going back to d-minor. The chorus was just like a blank to be filled in, the whole song was an overall feeling, yet I struggle with line 3 cause I can’t connect to that feeling and it only works if I don’t try so I’m sure it’ll come back when I don’t try.