Misunderstandings when communicating through writing

Every now and then I come across things that just appear in other ways than I meant them, so I want to write about one of those things.

I just give you the text. It was on a video about Minecraft:

“And haha 🙂 I built trees like that too, I thought it was bad. I mean mine looked worse.”

There is obviously no way that you could possibly misunderstand it you might think because my attitude is clearly friendly. But it is not about that but actually about that it would be very offsetting if it was misunderstood beCause of this friendly attitude. And in this case I was just saying (earlier in this comment) what I didn’t like about a detail that he put. He put some stairs as a detail in the way and to me it just looked like holes and that you could stumble, clearly nothing rough, I just said it, that I felt that he not even like it himself or maybe it’s just me.

So with that in mind all of a sudden it appears as if I could have meant that I thought the tree he built was bad and that mine looked worse though. Which is not a problem if I really thought so, you know what I mean but there is no way that I would critisize it such way.

So ok, I put brackets, but I put it after “I thought it was bad”

( I mean the one I built of course :), ehh I mean I then saw it was alright…just rechecked how it could be misunderstood)

Looks quite messy but it makes sense that I wanted to make sure…

There is another detail I realized I need to put and that is “by that” because otherwise it could mean something else.

( I mean the one I built of course :), ehh by that I mean I then saw it was alright…just rechecked how it could be misunderstood)

But then I figured it is not in the right order because it also looks like what am I up to and potentially as if I added “mine looks worse” after the brackets. But it was before,

So I put it after it:

“And haha 🙂 I built trees like that too, I thought it was bad. I mean mine looked worse.” …but now it wouldn’t relate back to the 2nd sentence.

So I had to add another detail:

“And haha 🙂 I built trees like that too, I thought it was bad. I mean mine looked worse.” ( I thought it was bad = I mean the one I built of course :), ehh by that I mean I then saw it was alright…just rechecked how it could be misunderstood)

I also “had” to put a smile because it reads frustrated otherwise. The smile just stands for not frustrated. I mean, I felt a light frustration or annoyance. This is another detail:

I mean, I felt a light frustration or annoyance.

vs

I mean I felt a light frustration or annoyance. (no comma)

One is explaining something I said before as in “I mean, that…”, the other is not. I wasn’t explaining anything I meant prior. I mean it has a dumbing down notion because everything is usually clear out of the context which is like a nonzoomed clear view or feel ( I just meant to say, that the other is zoomed in, not explain something everyone knows). I just didn’t put a comma for example. It’s whatever in most cases, but sometimes I get the feel that things look different than I meant it and yeah 🙂

Then expressed that it’s no big deal with “just rechecked how it could be misunderstood” because it isn’t. There is no complications, it just resolves. And the smile actually stands for “not frustrated” as a primary thing but it expresses also something else of a direct meaning of it.

The only problem is that it took the place of how I actually felt, while I feel atst you can dismiss all the other and only see what is is.

Now I might have found a different way to say it, but you know 🙂

So yeah I came across a few of these things and it’s good to realize, atst also good to stay calm about it if it was an email, that you can’t edit. You can always clear it up later or when you keep your page, it naturally contrasts usually with a misunderstanding. That would be a reason to not worry, ideally you’re just completely innocent and just don’t know anything else. When in doubt, just never worry, the vibe of it will ruin things and otherwise God can help so to speak. But of course you need to know that for sure, not withhold worries. I guess that is what is faith also. You just know you’re good or you are relieved to not do something that certainly will 1. not make it good 2. make it worse. We need to see that. I mean that’s actually not the real reason why to stay calm (and who knows sometimes it might need doing something about it, yet calmly), I mean it is a very good one, just might feel a little helpless. There often is simply no need to worry. Just like you might strike up talking about work in a romance situation (which isn’t necc. a bad thing), well then you just let it fade out and start with something new as it often already presents itself. There is no need to try to maneuver it hecticly.

In case it is confusing. By his way of building I realized the tree I was trying to build was actually not as bad as I thought. And I could have put it this way, but you see I like to write maybe a more personal way Idk how to say. It usually is something, when you know each other, you know how it is meant, which is the big freedom of being friends. You can say all the stuff that otherwise often gets misunderstood.

 

 

 

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Don’t take it personal

 

“Don’t take it personal”….” You wouldn’t say that if you didn’t mean it.” (it actually doesn’t mean, that the person meant it, but somebody who didn’t mean it, wouldn’t say such a thing)

This is btw the original thought behind my blog, 1 liners to express intuition/truth and assert things.

I was watching a Russian movie from the 70ies and somebody said with dignity, feeling slightly offended: “Don’t generalise it. pause Mine is an individual case.”, and they were friends, so he tries to reach him there. And I was imagening the other guy would reply : I didn’t mean to offend you, or don’t take it personal..and it felt really off to say these weird meta things.

I mean, apart from really meaning something like, I didn’t mean to offend you, apart from that, I feel it narrows life, like pushing pause. And then it appeared to me, that somebody who didn’t mean it personal would never say a thing like Don’t take it personal. I’m not saying there is an intention but you know…It’s really strange to say this stuff.

Overall I feel it’s a good idea to know what not to say and how not to say something. There was this other scene in a movie. Somebody was eating and the other person suggested to take some bread with it. He replied: Let me finish what I have first.

Sometimes we are focussed on how to say something which often comes with a ghostwritten thing about it, when it shud be about the expression, meaning no selfconsciousness. For some things we often have intonation habbits that communicate a tone that we might not even mean to communicate. So because of that, it would be good to know how not to say something, and the rest might just go by itself.

As for the above reply, in this specific situation the character says it non-asking, non-threatening, nonaggressive in general, nonpleasing and not trying to be assertive or lets say you could say that. And it was something I could relate to without meaning this in a repressive or definite sense. It simply comes from how you feel or how the the situation and said things are perceived, mostly it’s in the perception but it can be approached reverse by getting in touch with how not to say it.

But instead of that there might be fear of not saying it like that plus fear of saying it another way which causes not saying it the actual way. Very often there is fear underneath, and the question really is what the heck is the fear about and I think it is this.

The antidot for this, apart from meeting somebody who reminds one of who one is,  could be something like training in a calm moment or inspiration through life, also experiencing oneself expressing things with a different intonation, through imaginations that just come up, seeing how it feels (or acting, singing, ideally something natural, there isn’t really an intention, it’s something that’s enjoyable to do). But there is no goal to say it a certain way, that is actually just the point I’m trying to make. It’s an inspiration to connect back cause we always are already, everything is always there.

The moment you get in touch with the right intonation you give room for memories to come back to resolve situations from the past but only if there is real energy behind it or it would be impressive. Overall when things work they just work and there is not a lot of thinking. After all there is worlds between being and being self-conscious like a window that a bee tries to get through. It looks real but it feels different and once the bee found the gap, it just flies.

And we only try to say things a certain way because of this fear, or whatever it is , that causes to not say it the right way. It’s like a negative circle, like a layer.

Flirting/Making friends

I rewrite this one, cause it got too much overthought. The idea was simply to realise that when somebody does not return a look, which is natural..to look at somebody you like…then it is good to respect that. Knowing that the person might just have prejudices or whatever is the reason. To not get into any passive aggressive things or playing as if you also were not interested. By respecting it truly and naturally like you would rang a door but nobody answered there is a lack of all the other things that the person might expected from you which is why they might not returned the look in the first place. Something like that. I mean this was the essence of it and I think it is inspiring enough.

I mean this is really also about avoiding roleing and reroleing, to keep the vibe up for yourself where it is possible to connect to someone. It comes very natural to just not question it and respect it. It feels good. When I did this, the other one actually looked then at me and I forgot to look back cause I was still in the other movie. It showed that there was a diiferent expectation and then something like interest why it was different. People tend to underestimate sometimes and who knows why they do and it doesn’t matter. It goes kinda hand in hand with misunderstanding clear up by itself when you stay on your page.

 

 

A little story about being self-conscious

At times I feel a little selfconscious. I was sitting at a busstop that was out of service, to relax. And I got a bit selfconscious about it looking as if I was waiting for the bus. Until I realised that my selfconsciousness already includes knowing that the busstop is out of service. It’s rather a metaphor cause there is nothing to this situation really. Now you might think, ok if I wasn’t selfconscious then it’s not inclusive so you might get s.c. because of that but then you would realise that being s.c. still is absurd for the reason I just mentioned, so it’s kind of a thing of you might aswell not be s.c. or nevermind or such. Or wait, maybe just switch back and forth 🙂 until you are tired of this silly stuff. Because haha everytime you are selfconscious it is true: It includes you know the busstop is out of service hahaha

Meaning of words (3): hate

In Russian to hate means nenavidit, which means something like “not see”, something you don’t want to see, detest, can’t stand, can’t abide. I also think it relates to not having a connection to oneself, like numbness where there would be anger, or it is because of not having the connection to one’s feelings. So hate can also be good anger or something like an easy feeling of something you just can’t stand but you don’t bother much about it cause you keep it far away anyway. It surely is also connected to what you love. It can be destructive when the connection is not good or the other side takes it too personal maybe, but can be a start to feeling oneself or anger it rather is, I’m not sure. You could literally shout “I hate to not feel myself” or “I’m sick of not feeling myself” maybe with a guitar to give a soundarea to carry it more. Kinda like thunder and lightning. I mean you could start quiet and just let things come up and if you were not feeling yourself, it should get more intense and then there should be relief, like the rain afterwards (crying), when the thunder stops. Kinda just an allowing thing. And there should be more of a sunny day then. I mean this is very basic cause there is many things to feel about but I think it applies a lot and is generally something to feel about.

edit: This particular expression might actually not be good in the sense it could land on oneself but I’m not sure. While it might be true, that we want to feel ourselves often it does relate back to what happened and it’s about seeing something. That being said with all this confusion it’s a feeling that probably just came up within me and therefore is really legit. It doesn’t exclude the other.

Misunderstandings often clear up by themselves

It feels like the need or the trying to clear something up is often only cause of the belief that it would be the way. Because we don’t know that if we just stay on our page it will clear up by itself. By the lack of the other and by it in itself. Not that it really matters, it’s like inclusive.

 

The bird and the penguin

There was a bird that wanted to learn how to fly and it came across a penguin who was willing to teach it. He desiged exercises such as jumping and then picking up little pebbles. One time the wind blew away one of the pebbles and the penguin told the bird to get it back. The bird spread its wings and flew over to the pebble, picked it up and placed it back to where it was. “Ok, let’s continue”, the penguin said. The bird, feeling uneased about this idea yet not seeming to be able to make out why, proceeded to do so.

The same situation happened to occur again but this time the bird replied: “I just flew, do you think it is needed to continue the exercise?” to which the penguin answered: “Yes, surely it is needed.” And both, after some hesitation, went on about the practice.

Eventually within the 3rd occurance of this situation the bird paused, went within closing its eyes, gave everything some consideration and then said: “I decided to stop learning from you. Thank you for everything” But when it opened its eyes the penguin was nowhere to be seen, glancing what seemed more like the shape of another bird shortly before it disappeared.