I just want to let you know I was writing many things when I was confused about things or it was unconscious expression so to speak or semiconscious or you know writing is a creative thing by which you can get to something deeper. I think there is always something good in it, in case I was off but the overall expression could be off or even the way I see it of course. So, just read it with caution. There is some overthinking in it that’s just not good. It might seem like a nice detail or such but it could be completely meaningless. It’s very hard to write about life because it’s a thing of living. It’s hard to express what I mean sometimes, the ideas I have. Other times it might be inspiring. I remember though it never would be a problem because it was all kind of a matter of resolving or relief, meaning nothing that you would need to solve something. So yeah, just read it with caution while at the same time you can always leave something for the reason: who knows. It might be something true, meaning feeling true but maybe it confuses you at the same time which would be a reason to leave it.
Making a mis-take playing music …The reason to play something again is not to play the tune perfect as in having to play it perfect. Because that is hilariously absurd (apart from there being a real reason also for such ways). It is simply to stay in touch with the feeling you either want to express through the music “or” the feeling of a tune overall.
The same is true for practice. It is just naturally motivated by wanting to feel how it feels. Surely there are other “ways” or maybe wanting to practise technique to have a flowing experience or to later then “be more expressively”.
Thing is if you want to feel how it feels you get creative technically and how to practise it. But if you force yourself, you don’t even feel why you wanted to play it in the first place. So the pure performance focus becomes absurd cause it distracts.
I had quite a fascinating insight about that I would like to share.
So far I had this experience twice. One was a lucid dream the other was a normal dream.
In my lucid dream I was dealing with an opponent cause I realized it was a dream. I threw him out of the room and then I layed down in this dream and went to sleep or actually I was relaxing on a bed with headphones listening to music. I knew it was a dream, I felt my body on my bed, there was a deep relaxation. So I listened to this song and it was an awesome one, I couldn’t remember it though cause it was full stereo with bass, drums, keys, guitar..too much to remember.
Before I come to the point let me share the other dream.
I was in the camera position of an unplugged concert of Oasis. My pov was the camera, I was observing it. And Liam sat there playing the second guitar staccato accents around the offbeats and smiling like a kid looking around in the audience, very playful. It was a great rhythm. while Noel was strumming in d-minor sometjing like “The importance of being idle” and he sang. BUT it was a NEW song, They were performing a new song. And I believed it, I didn’t know I was dreaming.
Now what happened was since I believed it was real, my brain had to create this reality and actually the song sounded well. I only got to the verse, something very simple, yet I would usually not come up with it when trying to write a song. I would be too focussed too close to myself. The focus would be on trying to write a song instead of what I want to write about. The chorus I wrote after waking up but I only got to the 2nd line of it. It was like a filling in song, meaning when you have the first line of the verse you have the whole verse. The melody adjusted to the chord changes, not always how a song goes.
In the first dream even though I knew I was dreaming since I also took it for real, the music coming out of the headsphones I had to invent.
It’s actually quite hard to explain and I guess you can’t really try to do that.
When I was younger I figured a similar approach. I listened to a new album in the evening and in the morning I tried to remember it but since I only listened to it once I came up with my own stuff, yet it wasn’t all that satisfying. The same effect you have when you shower and you listen tomusic from another room and sometimes it feels like something other than it actually is cause you can barely hear it.
In each case my mind was forced to create a reality, the belief that it was real made it possible. Surely it is influenced from the things I already wrote and listen to and I think we do such things when writing songs when beign awake. So I was believing I am at a concert and to make the dream believable I had to come up with a good song and I wasn’t distracted by pressure to succeed at it. It was very natural and automatic.
It turned out to be chords I would usually avoid when trying to write a song. The first line has the chord d-minor which I felt and then the next chord was A major and the melody simply adjusted to that chord like a call and response to then form the figure of a verse going back to d-minor. The chorus was just like a blank to be filled in, the whole song was an overall feeling, yet I struggle with line 3 cause I can’t connect to that feeling and it only works if I don’t try so I’m sure it’ll come back when I don’t try.
edit: haha, it wasn’t about not trying. It’s about feeling. Surely trying blocks, but to just not try is not doing it haha. It actually is nothing that there is a solution for. Just because sometimes you gotto stop something for sure doesn’t make it a solution to a problem.
When you are talking to somebody it is like music. When we are relaxed our conversations tend to be more in rhythm.
Let me show you what I mean by taking a situation of “saying no”.
“Have you repaired the lamp?” (intonation critical, already sensing it isn’t repaired and going for a “got ya game”, see Eric Berne “Games people play”, provoking a justification, or just being angry about it not being repaired yet whatever the details)
To not justify you can use rhythm. Let’s say you reply: “No, I still got to do this.”
The words in itself could take any form through the intonation from annoyed, justifying, excusing, assertively and so on. But it’s not only about the intonation but also the rhythm.
It’s like the question was a snaredrum before the song ends and the “No” would be the last part of the song as you often see in live music when the whole band ends on the same beat. This would be a way to use rhythm to make a no more powerful or to work with the energy. As for this situation I don’t mean saying it over the top but definitely connected and something like subtly more emphasized, you know haha but yeah that is my picture and my idea is not about faking but about self-expression although it could also be done playfully I guess.
Then you could leave a pause and add “unaffectedly” -since you ended it with the No – “I still got to do it.”