Don’t take it personal

 

“Don’t take it personal”….” You wouldn’t say that if you didn’t mean it.” (it actually doesn’t mean, that the person meant it, but somebody who didn’t mean it, wouldn’t say such a thing)

This is btw the original thought behind my blog, 1 liners to express intuition/truth and assert things.

I was watching a Russian movie from the 70ies and somebody said with dignity, feeling slightly offended: “Don’t generalise it. pause Mine is an individual case.”, and they were friends, so he tries to reach him there. And I was imagening the other guy would reply : I didn’t mean to offend you, or don’t take it personal..and it felt really off to say these weird meta things.

I mean, apart from really meaning something like, I didn’t mean to offend you, apart from that, I feel it narrows life, like pushing pause. And then it appeared to me, that somebody who didn’t mean it personal would never say a thing like Don’t take it personal. I’m not saying there is an intention but you know…It’s really strange to say this stuff.

Overall I feel it’s a good idea to know what not to say and how not to say something. There was this other scene in a movie. Somebody was eating and the other person suggested to take some bread with it. He replied: Let me finish what I have first.

Sometimes we are focussed on how to say something which often comes with a ghostwritten thing about it, when it shud be about the expression, meaning no selfconsciousness. For some things we often have intonation habbits that communicate a tone that we might not even mean to communicate. So because of that, it would be good to know how not to say something, and the rest might just go by itself.

As for the above reply, in this specific situation the character says it non-asking, non-threatening, nonaggressive in general, nonpleasing and not trying to be assertive or lets say you could say that. And it was something I could relate to without meaning this in a repressive or definite sense. It simply comes from how you feel or how the the situation and said things are perceived, mostly it’s in the perception but it can be approached reverse by getting in touch with how not to say it.

But instead of that there might be fear of not saying it like that plus fear of saying it another way which causes not saying it the actual way. Very often there is fear underneath, and the question really is what the heck is the fear about and I think it is this.

The antidot for this, apart from meeting somebody who reminds one of who one is,  could be something like training in a calm moment or inspiration through life, also experiencing oneself expressing things with a different intonation, through imaginations that just come up, seeing how it feels (or acting, singing, ideally something natural, there isn’t really an intention, it’s something that’s enjoyable to do). But there is no goal to say it a certain way, that is actually just the point I’m trying to make. It’s an inspiration to connect back cause we always are already, everything is always there.

The moment you get in touch with the right intonation you give room for memories to come back to resolve situations from the past but only if there is real energy behind it or it would be impressive. Overall when things work they just work and there is not a lot of thinking. After all there is worlds between being and being self-conscious like a window that a bee tries to get through. It looks real but it feels different and once the bee found the gap, it just flies.

And we only try to say things a certain way because of this fear, or whatever it is , that causes to not say it the right way. It’s like a negative circle, like a layer.

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Flirting/Making friends

I rewrite this one, cause it got too much overthought. The idea was simply to realise that when somebody does not return a look, which is natural..to look at somebody you like…then it is good to respect that. Knowing that the person might just have prejudices or whatever is the reason. To not get into any passive aggressive things or playing as if you also were not interested. By respecting it truly and naturally like you would rang a door but nobody answered there is a lack of all the other things that the person might expected from you which is why they might not returned the look in the first place. Something like that. I mean this was the essence of it and I think it is inspiring enough.

I mean this is really also about avoiding roleing and reroleing, to keep the vibe up for yourself where it is possible to connect to someone. It comes very natural to just not question it and respect it. It feels good. When I did this, the other one actually looked then at me and I forgot to look back cause I was still in the other movie. It showed that there was a diiferent expectation and then something like interest why it was different. People tend to underestimate sometimes and who knows why they do and it doesn’t matter. It goes kinda hand in hand with misunderstanding clear up by itself when you stay on your page.

 

 

A little story about being self-conscious

At times I feel a little selfconscious. I was sitting at a busstop that was out of service, to relax. And I got a bit selfconscious about it looking as if I was waiting for the bus. Until I realised that my selfconsciousness already includes knowing that the busstop is out of service. It’s rather a metaphor cause there is nothing to this situation really. Now you might think, ok if I wasn’t selfconscious then it’s not inclusive so you might get s.c. because of that but then you would realise that being s.c. still is absurd for the reason I just mentioned, so it’s kind of a thing of you might aswell not be s.c. or nevermind or such.

Thoughts about god

People always say god wants you to be really down so he can work through you and in a way it’s how it goes but its not cause he wants you to be down, it’s just naturally the only way towards him and not away from. You might say, sure what else, but I didn’t mean it this way. I meant that being down is a side-effect.. I actually can’t put my finger on it anymore but maybe you feel what I mean.

In the same sense something kind and something sarcastic could look like the same thing. When you appear like playing it down so it can reach somebody…it could also look very similar like this when you were sarcastic, feeling unloved. Obviously the expressions are way different.

God speaks through people also and often they can’t get it across any better way but it sounding critical while the idea still is not to look at that opposing one’s feelings. It’s just some kind of understanding that might resolve a few things and it is related to that one does not need to be all down to connect back.

 

The bird and the penguin

There was a bird that wanted to learn how to fly and it came across a penguin who was willing to teach it. He desiged exercises such as jumping and then picking up little pebbles. One time the wind blew away one of the pebbles and the penguin told the bird to get it back. The bird spread its wings and flew over to the pebble, picked it up and placed it back to where it was. “Ok, let’s continue”, the penguin said. The bird, feeling uneased about this idea yet not seeming to be able to make out why, proceeded to do so.

The same situation happened to occur again but this time the bird replied: “I just flew, do you think it is needed to continue the exercise?” to which the penguin answered: “Yes, surely it is needed.” And both, after some hesitation, went on about the practice.

Eventually within the 3rd occurance of this situation the bird paused, went within closing its eyes, gave everything some consideration and then said: “I decided to stop learning from you. Thank you for everything” But when it opened its eyes the penguin was nowhere to be seen, glancing what seemed more like the shape of another bird shortly before it disappeared.

Relationships

The good of something old is not at all not inclusive in the good of something new.

In another sense, it’s these 2 things, to either talk it out or create something new. It can be tricky to impossible when talking about it makes it worse. Somebody not wanting to talk about it,might easily feel unconsciously he or she simply can’t because of being lost or seeing it would lead to such, or fears and lack of trust also. Meaning to splitt is often actually because one wants to connect. And to create new requires a good amount of understanding. Somebody might say something but actually misexpressed it and then identified with it and actually doesn’t want to have a reply to it but feels so cause the feeling was pleasant. By that I mean the thing about says no means yes or the other way around.

It is not easy to create a proper relationship when both don’t have a a good sense for reality and self. Otherwise it can be like In Uncharted 2 the Coop, person gets stunned all the time. So the best idea seems to be to not be irritated so easily. Oftentimes, it always looks like it isn’t. Somebody might act like a worried parent, projecting fears but might actually be worried about being in such role maybe. So if you would say something like don’t worry, person would identify. It’s the theme of roleing and reroleing. So it would be better to just let the person be from knowing everything else makes it worse, it’s not really the same as in taking them for real and letting them be. Or saying something simply based on what one sees. It often needs the natural feelings/energy you feel cause we face energy also, so saying this is whatever as in achieving such, cause it’s automatic. It is more about knowing that it needs surely a real perception to feel and there is no point in trying cause when it is, trying is not part of that. Something not to do and knowing why because sometimes the trying is the only thing that might be distracting but not at all overall. Sorry for expressing this complicatedly 🙂

So in that sense you can’t try to create. Relationships go easy as children  and around the first quarter of life. Then “shit” of the world or not really the world sneaks in as in I’m angry about it, causes disconnections and it doesn’t matter to think about such and why and that it might make sense or maybe that it is unneccssary. It doesn’t matter cause one might aswell or prefer to create something side-effect wise. But it shows that true love can be like the lottery, to get through and not misunderstand each other and change in the process. At the same it isn’t that hard. It’s always easy actually which is also why it can be so hard.