When I was a child and overall younger I didn’t know about relationships but I surely had more of them and of better quality.
You said you want
to cross the line
but then you thought
this isn’t right
But now you feel like searching on
it’s just a hint within your gut
This could turn out to be wise
For now it feels more like a lie
I know it’s you
But I know you don’t re—alize — it’s me
The truth in disguise of my fake destiny
Words just fall between our song and build
a wall that needs to stay no longer than it takes
it takes for this lesson
Can’t you feel my soul
I feel we’re drifting away
Can’t you see it’s pure
behind the blur in the way
The more i try to show
The more our love’s resisting to stay
My hands are tied cause you’re half the world away
my hands are tied cause you’re half the world away
even though this is meant rather figuratively
We all apparantly get born into something. Then after the world biased us we think we have solutions. Nobody remembers what we would have done if we wouldn’t gotten biased.
Yet it seems we can’t cause we need it to get through the world. It seems like we’re stuck but we don’t know it. Or we do not allow to look at it, bring it to our conscious cause we also depend on it.
Like cancer cells attack the body, these cells need healing, yet it spreads by the damage. Healing though is not perceived to be needed. This theme is in the golden child dynamic. Yet it needs energy to fill the void. It’s like an aritifical kept alive situation but feeling very alive and real at the same time as if nothing was wrong. Kinda the worst situation to be in if help is needed. If no energy is taken, the soul seems to attack the body and the same could be happening on the collective level. At the same time this is rather black and white thinking actually.
Then the energy giver get devalued as weak. But it could just be the human body trying to survive. Surely after you gave energy it affects your health and if you get too much it affects your ego.
Lower consciousness also seems natural for certain roles we take. Surely some of us provide food for example or whatever needs to be done so from this view there is no stupidty. But then it should never be like this. We all have our genius that we rarely get to but that we were meant to get to. Maybe such collective interaction is real and the only hope is to get aware of it to overcome our differences. But it doesn’t change the fact how absurd this world is. As serious as we may act fundamentally it’s really absurd.
Differences that are needed to cope, as if we do our best. Yet those differences also make it worse if such awareness is not there, Otherwise they could heal.
Yet we do think too much on the individual level and we maybe can rarely see what we may actually be doing. Maybe we are more in the same team than we think we are. It’s the perceptions we took that came with our position, a position that had to be taken cause that’s where we left off earlier.
It would be like not realizing we were in the same team is needed to hold everything together as we found it when we came here.
Just a thought.
edit: I think it’s not all like that. It’s not so much a healing thing actually although this theme is also there. One thought I had was that god at least in our sense, not universe wise, is the collective unconscious simply and not like all knowing but atst also all knowing but more like a plant that is growing. I mean it’s part of us and like another dimension simply, somebody says something and it has a deeper meaning and synchronicity things. Maybe something that is really just based upon waking up. Cause once it would be, the other layer wouldn’t be needed but it’s not so easy. So in that sense the world not seem so absurd. There is also a lot of bizarre love you could call it. Another metapher is water flowing around a stone parting as in polarities. But you know I have no idea 🙂 It won’t make you understand anyway I feel. It has something of passive life because we all have our thing to do anyway and unfortunately often can’t give ourselves the appreciation because of the different beliefs that are needed to kinda like a temporary shizophrenia of the collective unconscious cause I feel it simply doesn’t know yet. I mean wouldn’t it be absurd if there was an all knowing god who lets us go through so much struggle if he knew better. So we simply have like splitt parts of the human body and I feel the internet is needed also because of the added synchronicity. I mean there is something sleeping in our souls that’s for sure and it already expresses in so many ways as for example in inventing the internet. Often we also do something for reasons we think we would do but on the other dimension it has a complete different intention but we wouldn’t do it otherwise often. Also the thing with the mind is really a thing. Just because you sit somewhere and look at something, mindwise, you might be miles away from seeing it. And you can’t try cause it’s such a vague thing to do. Like being confident, you might know how to act confident but yeah atst sometimes it’s enough to believe when you dont remember for sure, but actually rather it’s gotto be something you can’t fake, although the faking isn’tnecc. so far away from how it actually is I mean like both, far and close.
There is hope in 3 am
As if the day could start free again
Lovers and friends helped to stay out of this mess
Now they’re rather pulling you in I guess
But it’s not about youth
Used to think it is all my fault
Only fault is to think it’s my fault
Coping brings up illusion so sweet
Coping again just puts me to sleep
Where I dream it’s my fault
Blames I wonder to where they belong
Nothing to find if zoomed out far enough
Empathy n anger are sharing a room
Blaming or breathing new life
At times I still feel this is all just a joke
I’m feeling alive but as soon as I don’t
The joke turns on me
We often go for the opposite when we don’t like something. For example fake friendlyness ..if we can’t stand it we tend to be more direct which is not really a problem. I think the problem is that we tend to overlook to also include the same thing just in real. I just call it a problem but it isn’t really such thing, you know what I mean.
You know what’s so absurd about everyday life? “Everyone” feels the same more or less but feels as if he is the only one. It makes a tragical funny picture among others.
instead of living it. I know the many reasons why we do it and it is probably not helped by pointing it out other than shifting awareness to it.
Just to give a simple example. Quite often when people are happy after achieving something they don’t express it directly but imitate it. Women tend to do this. I mean this Yieahhh. Surely it can be a playful thing also or in tune with oneself but it doesn’t change the fact that instead of expressing it purely it is an imitation. Now some people even imitate the imitation…
It reduces life and makes it more arteficial.