Relationships

The good of something old is not at all not inclusive in the good of something new.

In another sense, it’s these 2 things, to either talk it out or create something new. It can be tricky to impossible when talking about it makes it worse. Somebody not wanting to talk about it,might easily feel unconsciously he or she simply can’t because of being lost or seeing it would lead to such, or fears and lack of trust also. Meaning to splitt is often actually because one wants to connect. And to create new requires a good amount of understanding. Somebody might say something but actually misexpressed it and then identified with it and actually doesn’t want to have a reply to it but feels so cause the feeling was pleasant. By that I mean the thing about says no means yes or the other way around.

It is not easy to create a proper relationship when both don’t have a a good sense for reality and self. Otherwise it can be like In Uncharted 2 the Coop, person gets stunned all the time. So the best idea seems to be to not be irritated so easily. Oftentimes, it always looks like it isn’t. Somebody might act like a worried parent, projecting fears but might actually be worried about being in such role maybe. So if you would say something like don’t worry, person would identify. It’s the theme of roleing and reroleing. So it would be better to just let the person be from knowing everything else makes it worse, it’s not really the same as in taking them for real and letting them be. Or saying something simply based on what one sees. It often needs the natural feelings/energy you feel cause we face energy also, so saying this is whatever as in achieving such, cause it’s automatic. It is more about knowing that it needs surely a real perception to feel and there is no point in trying cause when it is, trying is not part of that. Something not to do and knowing why because sometimes the trying is the only thing that might be distracting but not at all overall. Sorry for expressing this complicatedly 🙂

So in that sense you can’t try to create. Relationships go easy as children  and around the first quarter of life. Then “shit” of the world or not really the world sneaks in as in I’m angry about it, causes disconnections and it doesn’t matter to think about such and why and that it might make sense or maybe that it is unneccssary. It doesn’t matter cause one might aswell or prefer to create something side-effect wise. But it shows that true love can be like the lottery, to get through and not misunderstand each other and change in the process. At the same it isn’t that hard. It’s always easy actually which is also why it can be so hard.

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Being kind to yourself

I feel often we are not kind to ourselves when we know we can do better. But often we also didn’t do better cause our spirit was down and then on top of it sometimes we are not kind to ourselves in such moments or are critical with ourselves which brings us even more down.

This is a double.effect. When our spirit is up we tend to make less mistakes. So be kind to yourself, knowing you could do better but you likely were just down-hearted 🙂

We are expressive beings and surely we could also or do express in such moments, that we are sad or down. It’s just that frustration and such things are better not turned against ourselves through the use of learnt patterns we learnt from others. Surely it expresses but with a different perception emotions could not arise in the first place, resolve or express but not on ourselves but as ourselves.

Then i was thinking that being kind to oneself is more about an inner picture or a perception. A feeling. It’s surely different to when somebody is kind to us.

 

Vibe

Sometimes you just gotto look at things from the vibe perspective.

There were people having a fun time in the yard  where I live. It was late around 1 am. They were enjoying themselves (good vibe), laughing but not about someone you could hear (meh vibe) like ridicule.

Then somebody shouted from a window and shut them up and it was quiet then, as if he casted a spell, I mean you could look at it like that. But it was no peaceful silence, rather a dead one, where there has just been something alive.

Now I wonder is it really about silence that you need to be able to sleep (better). Isn’t it more about something comforting which such vibe would be.

Now surely it may have confronted him with such vibe he doesn’t want to have cause it confronts him with something. But then which one is the more mature one. His shouting was based on fear effectively.

As for their reaction, surely if they’d kept it up he’d call the police and they don’t care bout that. But also how often do people change from their joyful vibe to the lower one finding themselves in an argument why they should have this fun time. Why leave the good vibe but is it really a question of choice or rather perception?

Then others may realize the fear in him and would ridicule him, which also makes them lose that vibe although this is rather typical for low vibe get togethers which you can hear by the way people laugh.

Song in vain

You said you want

to cross the line

but then you thought

this isn’t right

But now you feel like searching on

it’s just a hint within your gut

This could turn out to be wise

For now it feels more like a lie

 

I know it’s you

But I know you don’t re—alize — it’s me

The truth in disguise of my fake destiny

Words just fall between our song and build

a wall that needs to stay no longer than it takes

it takes for this lesson

 

Can’t you feel my soul

I feel we’re drifting away

Can’t you see it’s pure

behind the blur in the way

The more i try to show

The more our love’s resisting to stay

My hands are tied cause you’re half the world away

my hands are tied cause you’re half the world away

even though this is meant rather figuratively

 

Human Body

We all apparantly get born into something. Then after the world biased us we think we have solutions. Nobody remembers what we would have done if we wouldn’t gotten biased.

Yet it seems we can’t cause we need it to get through the world. It seems like we’re stuck but we don’t know it. Or we do not allow to look at it, bring it to our conscious cause we also depend on it.

Like cancer cells attack the body, these cells need healing, yet it spreads by the damage. Healing though is not perceived to be needed. This theme is in the golden child dynamic. Yet it needs energy to fill the void. It’s like an aritifical kept alive situation but feeling very alive and real at the same time as if nothing was wrong. Kinda the worst situation to be in if help is needed. If no energy is taken, the soul seems to attack the body and the same could be happening on the collective level. At the same time this is rather black and white thinking actually.

Then the energy giver get devalued as weak. But it could just be the human body trying to survive. Surely after you gave energy it affects your health and if you get too much it affects your ego.

Lower consciousness also seems natural for certain roles we take. Surely some of us provide food for example or whatever needs to be done so from this view there is no stupidty. But then it should never be like this. We all have our genius that we rarely get to but that we were meant to get to. Maybe such collective interaction is real and the only hope is to get aware of it to overcome our differences. But it doesn’t change the fact how absurd this world is. As serious as we may act fundamentally it’s really absurd.

Differences that are needed to cope, as if we do our best. Yet those differences also make it worse if such awareness is not there, Otherwise they could heal.

Yet we do think too much on the individual level and we maybe can rarely see what we may actually be doing. Maybe we are more in the same team than we think we are. It’s the perceptions we took that came with our position, a position that had to be taken cause that’s where we left off earlier.

It would be like not realizing we were in the same team is needed to hold everything together as we found it when we came here.

Just a thought.

edit: I think it’s not all like that. It’s not so much a healing thing actually although this theme is also there. One thought I had was that god at least in our sense, not universe wise, is the collective unconscious simply and not like all knowing but atst also all knowing but more like a plant that is growing. I mean it’s part of us and like another dimension simply, somebody says something and it has a deeper meaning and synchronicity things. Maybe something that is really just based upon waking up. Cause once it would be, the other layer wouldn’t be needed but it’s not so easy. So in that sense the world not seem so absurd. There is also a lot of bizarre love you could call it. Another metapher is water flowing around a stone parting as in polarities. But you know I have no idea 🙂 It won’t make you understand anyway I feel. It has something of passive life because we all have our thing to do anyway and unfortunately often can’t give ourselves the appreciation because of the different beliefs that are needed to kinda like a temporary shizophrenia of the collective unconscious cause I feel it simply doesn’t know yet. I mean wouldn’t it be absurd if there was an all knowing god who lets us go through so much struggle if he knew better. So we simply have like splitt parts of the human body and I feel the internet is needed also because of the added synchronicity. I mean there is something sleeping in our souls that’s for sure and it already expresses in so many ways as for example in inventing the internet. Often we also do something for reasons we think we would do but on the other dimension it has a complete different intention but we wouldn’t do it otherwise often. Also the thing with the mind is really a thing. Just because you sit somewhere and look at something, mindwise, you might be miles away from seeing it. And you can’t try cause it’s such a vague thing to do. Like being confident, you might know how to act confident but yeah atst sometimes it’s enough to believe when you dont remember for sure, but actually rather it’s gotto be something you can’t fake, although the faking isn’tnecc. so far away from how it actually is I mean like both, far and close.

Friendship

I was wondering what actually makes a good friendship and I think it is about connecting simply.

Just often both don’t know who they are. So the more both know who they are the more they know who the other one is and it almost goes automatic and respect is already included. It’s rare which is kinda weird actually. I just love uncomplicated interactions, knowing if I may get lost in a game maybe, the other one knows me and doesn’t play along.

But it isn’t that easy. There tends to be these things that get in the way which I hate. it can bring both away from themselves causing what could have been a good friendship to break before it started or actually turning it into something both sides suffer from. And then they don’t see the higher body but only the other person and blame and such happens or devalueing. Yet I don’t know if it’s so natural to step aside, after all emotions gotto be dealt with, I mean maybe they cud resolve then but then maybe it’s better to leave it for now and ideally connect back to oneself. I feel it’s gotto be natural like a wave you ride without much self-consciousness.

And overcoming these leads to a deeper friendship. As I wrote perceiving somebody acting away from themselves and not mirroring this back or getting enabled but instead reminding them of who they are. And I don’t like when such happens on the meta level, it’s like stepping aside from life, feels unnatural but it’s different from stepping aside from roles.. And other times these petpeeves are needed. So we naturally accept it knowing the person needs this in their overall way to be and it gets playfully dealt with.

But not everybody who plays a game wants to step away from it and rather depends on it and then doesn’t get the intimate connection he or she may actually want. But it’s maybe not about not wanting something one wants but fear of something which already turned into believing real connections would be weak or such.

The interesting thing is that love is actually very close to friendship, it’s actually rather obvious.

Being selfish/Human Body

I think being selfish is the cells of the human body protecting themselves from further damage not in an egoistical way as we perceive it but with an overall healing in mind. Only when the ability to protect increases it will lead to a different “attitude”.

Part of this protection is causing further damage but there is also being selfish without doing that and it may happen as a side-effect . I’m not sure but I sense it has a tragical touch. If you spin this further you see that healing cells need to learn to protect better by proper perception and patience. They also often get misidentified as hostile which is also tragical causing traumatization on the collective unconscious level.

The ego could be  a protect mechanism on a deeper level.

edit: The question is whether it is healing of a sick body in a dramatical way or if it is just a natural changing process that goes its way anyway or maybe both and without the drama.