Confidence in Feeling

My socks have holes atm. About more than half of them. As for the example, it was the situation that made me feel inspired about it so I just put it as it was.

I got out of the shower, it was cold. I quickly wanted to grab underwear and then spontaneously also went for some socks. I recalled that already a day earlier I had trouble finding some with no holes. I grabbed one sock. It was four singles ones as for the one’s I considered. I took a second one and wanted to check it but my feel was it’s good. (while I obviously might still want to see it just cause I wanna if I wanted to)

Here is why:

I had not felt like I can pick 2 with no holes if that wasn’t possible. Also because if every sock had a hole I had already felt like that, but I didn’t, hence I felt there are 2 good ones. And given that I went with my feel I had to get the one that was alright. It wouldn’t made any sense to feel that confident and then have one with a hole.

It doesn’t fucking matter you know, I’m just saying. 🙂

You don’t need to know why something is dumb

Watched a video “Man who not give a damn about bear” I thought/felt: “Ok, that’s already stupid, Idk why. *clicked it away* People always need to figure out why.”

Especially they won’t see why cause they kept watching despite their feel being different.

While on the other side it also relates to something being a prejudice, surely. I mean something else. And as you can see, it doesn’t matter what that something else exactly is. So this is what I mean you know )

Things that also don’t mean anything bad

Just skip the first passage if it feels complicated :)(it does for me too), aside the first sentence.

It’s possible to say “I don’t think a lot of him.” and it being nothing bad so to speak. It’s not bad either way but what I mean is sometimes we feel it might be bad, or we actually just meant to say it in “the good” way and so it feels off when we say it in a disapproving-like way.

I mean it is quite a phenomenon. Because when you say it with its original meaning, then it feels good. And it’s almost as if saying it in a condescending way or whatever this notion is.. would lead to say it in such a way. Because it’s not said in the original way.

In German it means “to not hold a lot of someone”. So you don’t share a lot, which means it doesn’t even interest you. The actual sense of it. Like why would you be so involved with someone you don’t even think of a lot. So it seems the condescending touch actually has to do with not being able to say it in the real way. Being out of touch with that.

But I don’t mean any self fixing; that doesn’t exist.

Feeling

These are 2 comments I posted. The format is just a bit off and I can’t fix it.:

1. You might be surprised how much things have purely to do with feelings.
Think about it, how often do we feel but not express it? It accumulates.
I have noticed a change of viewpoint after feeling, even realizing my own soul which lead to relief. By that I mean seeing the light from a heavy feel, understanding why it was reasonable to feel intensely, or it was the relief simply.

The other way around you could say, that we hold views so that we are able to feel. Or maybe it doesn’t serve any intention but there is definitely something about this. We are after all beings which means when we don’t express how we feel, things add up like a layer to our connection to life. Sometimes it is just about things you literally get off your chest where it is merely about to feel and why not. (edit: or wait, it is not about to get things off your chest. It is about to feel, which gets things off your chest. There is no theory about it anyway)

Because maybe the topic was low and below you but nontheless the feelings were there and from a reality pov that’s all there is. You feel, as a being and that is real. And I shouldn’t even say that because one shouldn’t know anything else. But it doesn’t even matter because you can only do one thing, feel or think.
You could even have such theory initially but once you feel, it’s whatever, 2%.

And feelings are generally …I mean there are no bad feelings. (Even guilt and shame are good unless falsely attributed but I don’t mean these) We have a lot of fear about unpure feelings. But as always in life things need space.
A feeling might not be pure initially but nontheless it starts with a feel.
The problem is when unpure feelings get stuck within a relationship.
It’s not that both people wouldn’t want to resolve it. It can also be rather light right away. Especially anger is very strong and pure the more you already feel as you should, not below something right? because anger is what keeps things at distance so to speak.

There is many things not working out if you just look at singing. Who can really effortlessly express their feelings with music which is though the natural way to do it. You see people pushing and trying which is okay too to get in touch but who can really feel? There is not a lot of emotional depth in singing, people get carried away to sound beautiful which feelings always do. And you can see this tendency everywhere that one wants to feel. There is so many “genres” of music that ultimately are about the life stream wanting out. Literally everything is life stream, there is only one channel. Have you ever noticed that you can say the same thing you would say angrily also lightly? continued: But often they get stuck because it doesn’t stay with anger, which it isn’t often even. There is relief and yes there is love then. I mean just look at the weather, how could we miss such a simple thing? rain, lighting, thunder…Relief-rain (different from the beginning rain which resembles sadness)….sun. How could we miss it?

2. There is no such things as hurt feelings. It’s the soul and it’s often misunderstood why it is reasonable. From a pure sense pov you should never doubt your soul. If you feel hurt there is a reason, you don’t need to figure it out. So often we undermine ourselves by needing to see it all clear because that cannot be a conditional thing about it when the feeling is already there/real. We want to feel as we do, not analyze our feelings. We do it the wrong way arouind often. You figure it when you feel, while it’s not in order to, because there was never a problem about it; it’s just the natural way.

And surely there is such a thing as saying the “right” things, meaning anger for example comes from seeing it right but it still often is the other way around that we don’t actually see it all clear because naturally we feel. Or maybe our feelings are often not pure meaning attached and it surely has to do with the mind also while a pure mind comes though from how you feel. You can see the problem is with not even understanding ourselves as for feelings. You wouldn’t really solve a thing by coming from this problematic pov of entangled interactions. So often we try to solve problems that are though naturally not even a problem with what is already true and real.

Spelling things out

You could say some things are 2x-effects and for that you only care to know the feel of it 🙂 maybe smth like (two arrows pointing away from each other) You don’t care to spell it out. There is no weight on to not spell it out because of what is :)Otherwise it might be important haha

Sadness

Part of sadness is that it was humour. There is no trying to not laugh and it’s not about that one didn’t want to laugh in the first place.

Liam …you probably don’t know..his brother said Liam is a man with a fork in a world of soup. He made a video eating soup with a fork wearing a napkin. People laughed. Souperb. It’s sad.

It’s sad that they can’t see that it’s sad. Soup is shallow life, the napkin stands for it too. It was adorable too, but it wasn’t meant to be funny. There is love in it, anger. It is sad that even though the image is clear…fork, something good to eat, life that shines, it is not seen and that soup is nothing much of life. That he is looked at as the one who is to be pitied, not that anyone is to be pitied. That’s sad too. And to think one was bad for laughing is also sad.

The only way souperb would be funny is relief which it kind of intends which makes it also sad. But there is no relief. You see? And that’s sad. He also not gonna get his feelings met by that, He felt angry and he was kind too. But everybody sees it as a joke. I mean, in a way it’s like an unconscious good thing but nothing resolved, and that’s sad :((

Not a depressing sadness, it felt relieving. There was love in it.