Song in vain

You said you want

to cross the line

but then you thought

this isn’t right

But now you feel like searching on

it’s just a hint within your gut

This could turn out to be wise

For now it feels more like a lie

 

I know it’s you

But I know you don’t re—alize — it’s me

The truth in disguise of my fake destiny

Words just fall between our song and build

a wall that needs to stay no longer than it takes

it takes for this lesson

 

Can’t you feel my soul

I feel we’re drifting away

Can’t you see it’s pure

behind the blur in the way

The more i try to show

The more our love’s resisting to stay

My hands are tied cause you’re half the world away

my hands are tied cause you’re half the world away

even though this is meant rather figuratively

 

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3 am

There is hope in 3 am

As if the day could start free again

Lovers and friends helped to stay out of this mess

Now they’re rather pulling you in I guess

But it’s not about youth

Used to think it is all my fault

Only fault is to think it’s my fault

Coping brings up illusion so sweet

Coping again just puts me to sleep

Where I dream it’s my fault

Blames I wonder to where they belong

Nothing to find if zoomed out far enough

Empathy n anger are sharing a room

Blaming or breathing new life

At times I still feel this is all just a joke

I’m feeling alive but as soon as I don’t

The joke turns on me

Relief

To single out what sometimes seems to be so far away
wrapped up in doubt and fear vaguely interspersed in our days
hold on to it and won’t you ever try to let it go
for it will always find a way and knock back at your door
survey the essence and confide it right back to your heart
just that it never seemed to belong to another part

Declining darkness ultimately alongside with your fears
can’t help to unremarkably and slowly disappear
before you held on merely to enfeebling morbid fights
the seeming wasted time so gently soothed by guiding lights
they boldly shine as if there never was a single doubt
blissfully burning thorny trappings of your gasping heart